Differences between kids

Something that happen the other day got me thinking. I was sitting in the room with my 4 year old. She asks me "Mommy, do you still love me"? I say "Yes, I love you very much". In return she says "If you love me, then why do you yell at me"? I told her "I yell because you do things that make me mad". I then had to leave the room because I was about to cry. I run to the bathroom and start crying.

How could my child think that I don't love her? Do I not give her enough attention, hugs, kisses, etc. Do I not let her know daily that I love her? Do I yell at her so much that she thinks I hate her? Why do I yell so much?

I yell so much because sometimes I feel like that's the only way they are going to hear me. It's the only way I can be hear sometimes.

Then it got me thinking about the differences between my children. My oldest is in that stage of not wanting to have much to do with her parents. She's a teenager though so that's to be expected. Although she's pretty good about "hanging out" with her dear old mom. She's always been independent though, never one of those kid you had to play with all the time and needed your full attention. Which is amazing to me because I was a single mom for the time she was about 2 til I married when she was 6 years old. She was an only child for 6 years.

My second child is probably the most like me. She's quiet and shy until she gets to know you. She's loving and loves hugs,kisses,and curling up in your lap just to sit there. She's pretty thoughtful, and wants to be friends with everyone and wants everyone to like her.

My third child is my little tomboy, thoughtful, loving, likes to cuddle as well. Her feeling get hurt very easily. She's a little people person as well.

My fourth child is my 4 yr old that broke my heart. She's my "wild" child, the one that pushes every button she can at every chance she gets. She's not a cuddler, she doesn't like to sit on your lap, rarely gives hugs and kisses. Shy until you get to know her. Good as cold at school, but wild at home. Seems to enjoy talking back to me and pushing my buttons.

My fifth child, well she's 17 months old and stuck to Mommy like glue. She just started giving hugs and kisses.

My sixth child, my one and only little man is only 3 months old. Only time will tell what he is like. Spoiled by his sisters I'm sure.

I guess my point in all of this is how do I show my 4 year old that I love her. My other kids (excep my 13 year old) love the hugs and kisses where as my 4 year old will let you hug and kiss her but it's not a daily thing. The other night I asked her if she wanted to cuddle on my lap and she sat there for about 5 minutes and asked to get up. She's just not a cuddle me, hold me, hug and kiss me kind of kid. It's odd to me that one of my children are like this. I'm a hugger. I love getting and giving hugs. I get it from my Great Grandmother. She loved hugs!